Melting Minds…

A Dialogue between two Artist-Friends:

Dumbo: Hey... just felt like to chat for a while..

There is nothing new actually which I can share with you... but still I felt like to share something you know...... as I have realized in last few days... you are an artist-soul... a sensitive soul... a kind & compassionate human being & I have evidences to make my realization stand...

I feel great the way Art has tied us together as good friends... who truly care for each other... though we seldom know the details of each other's life... Actually we don’t need to know… Neither do have we met each other… Actually We don’t need to meet too… n yet, we feel we are pals... :O))) Somehow there is this connection… a strong one… &  I connect to that wandering yet humane spirit in you... & feel I hold the same spirit inside... though not as tangibly as you hold it within you... Spirit of a Wanderer!

Nutty: :O)

Nutty: dozed off?

Dumbo: Naah… Thanks... I mean it... for being there.....

Nutty: What happened to you?

Dumbo: what happened to me hmm??

Dumbo: Can’t say what happened... :O))) Many a times it happens while singing.... :O)))

Nutty: I know.. I know.. One woman's ceiling is another woman's floor.. But still..

Nutty: U r very kind, for all those kind words u just mentioned..

Dumbo: :O)

Nutty: and I never get tired of my friends.. :O))) And I never give a chance for me being the reason for it to wither away..

Nutty: u know, there is a part in I CHING..One of the oldest and richest of all Chinese texts on meditation and philosophy.. Much akin to our sutras..

Dubmo: hmm...

Dubmo: tell me...

Nutty: there is a part which goes.. "When 2 people are at one in their innermost hearts, they shatter even the strength of iron or bronze.. And when 2 people understand each other in their innermost hearts, their words r sweet and strong, like the fragrance of orchids...

Dumbo: Right... very lyrical... & also truthful...

Nutty: they r mostly in hexagrams and symbols, and English is grossly inadequate to explain much of it. but this seems the closest..

Nutty: something like there is no word in English language that can explain to u the full meaning of Guru..

Nutty: a teacher is a pale imitation..

Nutty: there is no divinity in it..

Dumbo: Right.... Right… tell me... you are a very caring & loving person... then didn’t you ever feel like to have a soul mate in life? 

Dumbo: sorry.... you are free not to answer this...my friendie… :O)))

Nutty: ah..u know..everytime any of my buddies asked me.. I used to tell them..u see..

Nutty: the basic requirement is to find a person who can stand me for 5 mins.. :O)

Nutty: and I cud take it from there...

Nutty: sadly, I cannot put myself in what my buddies follow the dispenser love track..

Dumbo: hmm... one can feel that...

Nutty: But… I am happy. Being in love is not the only requisite for being happy in life…

Dubmo: true... contrary... being in love, brings lot of pain ... many a times… a grave pain... deep down... may be you have or have not gone through that pain... I donno… :O)))

Nutty: I did deeply care about someone in my life... as a soul mate as u mentioned... And the hard part too.. (Which still comes to me in surprisingly fleeting moments, unexpected) is that I HAVE NEVER SEEN the person face to face...

Dumbo: Oh...

Has the love gone away now??...... Well... I know time changes everything.... & yet your heart & mind carry the scars... hmm...??

Nutty: But I know something….it pains only till the moment you accept it.. Once u accept it.. u seem to see it from a third person's perspective..

Nutty: u know.. As in someone walking through this big Museum of memories in my head, and comes to a particular point of time, finds an exhibit9a healed scar and thinks.. ah..so this is when Me had this heart broken..alright..lets see whts the next exhibit..

Dumbo: well... am unsure... about being objective like you... me a sentimental kinda person... :O)

Nutty: I am too..but I keep reminding myself that lil bit of lord Krishna’s bit all the time..Nishkama karmanya.. May be it wouldn’t be possible most of da times, but it helps...

Don’t expect anything.. from anyone..so anything u get is a bonus that makes u happy..

Dumbo: it does... make you happy… like for no reason, when my eyes get wet out of this happiness inside... for no reason me feels lost in the air...

Nutty: that also means very few millstones around ur neck..

Nutty: my eyes too well up at an article I read in a newspaper, a magazine... a scene in a movie.. I feel that I still havent failed nature in making use of all my senses in response to events around me... I feel thankful that my city life hasnt dulled my nerve endings... to that extent...

Dumbo: Hmm.. you know it?.... you know it… It is not easy to be an artiste... every time... I breathe out music... I give a trial... a fresh one...

Nutty: I know.. I know..

Dumbo: Mind becomes so restless.... anxious...the inner challenge that music puts forward in front of me is so huge itself that no need to even think of the external affairs like competition... commercialism & all... & for an artiste like me…. falling in the parallel stream of music... which is Not focused merely on entertainment.... has I think still a different task to attend....

Nutty: u know..there r just 7 basic frequencies in this universe..seven levels of molecules dancing  and pulsating with energy..we ride on them,find their cousins in between,and then their cousins..and we try to embrace them all in our mind and what comes out is an exquisite melody..and in the supreme effort of it all, we realize we have touched our innermost core..people call it divinity, nature’s rhythm..whatever..

but essentially we feel lucky to have touched the heart of the universe..

Dumbo: Hmm… In My case… Those are….

seven musical notes...

seven....

musical....

notes....

I feel lucky?

aamah.... I am at pains to even think of this luck.... what do I do? What do I do? I touch the heart of the Universe…. Hmm??

Nutty: And once you have done that, u r a changed and different person..and that’s why u r my favourite artiste.... :O)))

because,only when u think about it,u know the immense respect that a soul deserves for being there..

hope am not boring u with my flowery c**p

Dumbo: aah.... that adds to my pain... you know why?

Me knows well… me is Nothing... Nobody.... who just has to assume... & believe that am ‘Something’ when I sit on the stage...

has to appear there as an artiste... when actually true Art is miles away from you... do you know this.... what you hear is just a glimpse... of what actually it should be.... but....

Nutty: exactly.. because when u r on that journey to the center of the universe, my dear, ur mortal form shud b ur least cause of worry, and along with it, its pains, business interests and domestic disputes..

very simple question..

Dumbo: hmm..

Nutty: do u like urself the best when u r singing.. regardless of wthr u r on stage or at home, in ur favorite wicker chair on hubby dearest’s shoulder humming a melody..?

Dumbo: only sometimes.... but those sometimes occur only when I am singing.... aah.... how true... a revelation... :O)))

Nutty: in that living moment, does it bother that the ur quests, ur efforts have not necessarily given u material comforts, in return as a part of ur heart wanted?

I dont think so..

Dumbo: oh....

I not even for a sec bother abt material reward etc when am singing.... that is not something which I expect out of music....

Nutty: in that moment, u r just a vessel for saraswati..

Dumbo: Music makes me actually what I am... bas... aur kuchh naheen... in every sense of the words ‘I am.’

Nutty: the epitome of nature's rhythm..

Dumbo: hey... didnt I write that in Going Solo.... that I become a Patra... A carrier...? but just for that tiny moment....

Nutty: how many of the mortal souls can find themselves in that position?

Nutty: tell me….

Dumbo: True… but then.... Mayaaaaa.... Mahaaa Tthagni.... when you become YOU... aah.... it gives Pain....

Nutty: a handful..

as in when the curtains are down,u r left back on earth,with ur mortal pains..is that it?

Dumbo: Aaah... me a mortal only I know.... I know… sab illusion... :O))) created to comfort me in my distress…. which my 'mind n music' weave around me.... hmm?? Yeh Mann maha bhayankar babaaa.... :O)))

Nutty: Now… shut off from that Cosmic World where u just travelled an antara back?

Dumbo: hmm...

Dumbo: thanks for being a co- traveller... :O)

Nutty: u know, i hv this very compelling image in my head,one of the many..

Nutty: about every single person on this earth as travellers. walking on this great road to a startling source of light..

Nutty: sometimes people pass u by, u offer them a smile.. Some return, some don’t..

Nutty: everyone is in his/her own pace and it is the required pace for each one of them..

Nutty: and along the way, u sometimes see some on the shoulder of the road, catching a breather...

Nutty: u offer them ur hand,

Nutty: some take it with a thankful smile..some refuse..

Nutty: sometimes u carry some on ur shoulder for a while..

Nutty: and in some point of the journey, they leave ur hand and walk away, some with a smile of gratitude, some without.. u still keep walking.. and its another day…

Dumbo: hey you.... dont you go ever on anybody's shoulder you???? always lifting others?

Nutty: I am nutty..aint I?

Dumbo: Hey Nutty, what about you, getting lifted by others? for a change buddy? :O)

Nutty: in my head..am always walking.. its from my perspective

Dumbo: eeeah... you are eccentric about lifitng poor souls like me... aah... but it feels nice to be lifted.... don’t have to carry you’re your own weight? Wonderful thought… he he....

Dumbo: But… me a dependent soul.... unlike you.... :O(((

Dumbo: so....

Nutty: but I am a lil curious..

Dumbo: curious? abt?

Nutty: yeah...u hv a multitude of Ur close friends my dear, been having them around since donkey’s years around u, a part of Ur everyday life...

Nutty: I am just a weird traveller whom u met a few months back.. and yet,u felt at one moment that u needed to have me around to chat... Was feeling how lucky and happy I am.. at this moment..

Dumbo: Hmm.. Donno what brings tomorrow to me but… Yeah, I do feel we artistes, do have melting minds… & I find a soul-pal here… In You… I wish you all happiness my pal… :O)))

A Very Happy Valentine Day! To You! May you find sooner than later your soul-mate too & Be Happy … Always… With Loves… :O)))

P.S – Hey folks! Do You know!?! Something very special happened to Nutty just after few days of this chat…. & Dumbo came to know that Nutty has finally found the soulmate & experiencing joy heavenly now! Aaah! How a true wish works magically naah? :O)))